To be or not to be?

Geez.
I am waiting, waiting, desperately waiting for the very last of my law school ap letters to come back. It should be in my mother's mailbox within the hour. So far, no other law options I've been waitlisted twice-- at Seattle U and at Rutgers. What a drag.
I applied to no "safety schools"-- no 3rd or fourth tier bottom of the barrels. I decided to only go for what would make me happy- places that seemed a good fit for me. And because of my decision, I may end up OUT IN THE COLD for the next year and a half. I'll keep applying, cause once I dig in, I dig in.
I've already decided to become a lawyer. There's a reason I've went through all this-- studying for the exams, taking the exams, working at a law firm-- and my friends and family have invested in "the dream" also.

If I'm waitlisted again.. oh, perish the thought. But if so, then so be it. I jsut don't want to hang on, expecting to get into a program. After all, I have a life to live! I have choices I have to make. This isn't just... Okay, breathe....

I'm keeping my fingers crossed. I will be grateful for the chance to go to UNLV. I talked so much shit about that school-- I can't imagine being on that campus again. That's where it all started, where I took my first college class years and years ago. Ending it there would be... kind of morbid. But I'd probably look into transferring out anyway.
If I got in.

There's nothing I can do now but wait. Something in my gut tells me that it's not going to happen-- that I'll be waitlisted or rejected there too.
But I have other goals and dreams, too, you know.

Kisses~ S